Getting Better all the TIme

Wow, it's been a crazy few days for me.  I've learned a lot about a really important person in my life, and I've learned a lot about myself.  I told them things that I've never told anyone before, and I feel so much better.  I finally have someone who promised to always be there for me, and who promised to help me when things are bad.  I've learned that no matter what it feels like now, it's getting better all the time <3

Because I like my eyes

So I know that for some of you, aka no one cause no one reads this, this picture ^^^^^ may look a bit...i dunno...I guess provocative?? Who knows, don't worry, I was wearing a tank top, that's why you can't see the sleeves.  The reason I used this picture is because I like my eyes in it <3 yes I did edit it by making it brighter (boost is what the effect is called), but I didn't do anything to color enhance my lips or eyes.  I don't have the program for that because it costs extra and I don't feel like wasting money when I can just use red lipstick?  My eyes are really green in this <3 love

Robot??? I don't think so

Apparently, Hannah's blog thinks I'm a robot... if only

Back to you

As soon as something goes down with one person, I want to go back to you.  Even though you seemed to hurt me the most, maybe it was because you really did care.  All I know, is that you really did love me.  More than anyone else has.

most awkward moment of my life

So awkward when the guy you kinda like and who you think really likes you...actually doesn't.  When he says "ask me a question, about anything;)" then basically gives the impression that he likes you, but when you ask him he says "I like u ur really pretty, but it'd be really weird if we dated.  so lets just be best friends <3" Screw my life.  Oh well, one less to deal with

Boys are Bad ;)

So here we go.  Me, the girl who is definitely not known as the one the guys fawn over, is being bombarded. There's the guy that I really like and who likes me back.  He's my age, sometimes inappropriate, and most of the time really sweet.  Everything I've always thought a high school boyfriend would be like.  Then there's the guy that's like my best friend.  Everybody either thinks we're dating, or says we should be.  But I can't see that.  He and I are too close to even think about that, and I want it to stay that way.  Then there's the guy that I have to kiss in our school musical.  A lot of people are saying we'll have a "thing" by the end of it, but I doubt that.  And I really don't care.  I know him, but he's a grade older and we don't really "know" each other.  I don't like him like that.  Lastly, there's the guy I've been trying to forget.  My first kiss, and my first and only boyfriend.  The guy who keeps surprising me, and brings himself back into my life the second i begin to forget about him.  I've been trying to keep him out of my head, but he just keeps coming back.  I used to hate being the girl who never had any guys.  Can I have my old life back, please?  Boys are bad, remember that everyone ;)

Stage fright

GAHHHHHH!!!  So I've never mentioned this before, but I basically could never act, or at least IIII thought I couldn't.  But I can sing and I've been dancing since I was 5.  After hearing that our school is doing "Hairspray" for our spring musical, my friends convinced me to try out.  I would've been happy to just be in the ensemble dancing and singing, but who would've guessed what the outcome is?  I auditioned for vocals and dancing the first day, and think I nailed it.  Then the second day, they asked me to sing again and said they loved it.  I read lines and left for the night, surprised that I had read for a lead role.  The next day I saw the cast list, and I was cast as Amber.  I never would've guessed that I would be playing a leading role in a musical, let alone a mean, snobby, star :)  I think this will be so much fun!  The only thing that I'm a little nervous about is that I have to kiss the sophomore playing Link.  We'll see how that goes! Wish me luck!

Someone please slap me silly

Grrrrrrrrrr.  I don't know if I've ever been this nervous around a guy I like....someone please slap me silly!

Cyberbullying

I, as well as everyone else, is probably sick of this topic.  We hear about it all the time. But finally I understand it.  It doesn't have to be someone threatening you over the internet, or calling you bad names, or hacking your profiles, or even stalking you.  It can just be someone who says rude things to you, blames you, anyone who makes you scared or upset.  Someone who verbally beats up your best friends, and is attempting to do the same to you.  They make you cry, they make you scared, they make you want to give up trying to be good.  I won't give up...

Ever changing music obsession :0

I don't keep a favorite song for more than a few days.  But right now, I love "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz.  Also "Happily Ever After" by He is We.  Listen to them both <3 That's all for now